THOSE MOMENTS

Can you tell what I was thinking????
I bet you can't!
Saturday, 4:50 pm, on a bus from Lagos to Sagres with Fabi and Ines, after a crazy night, good moment to reflex about some things that are going on in your life...
The upcoming sunset sun in my eyes, the engine running silently sounding almos like a mantra, and me, with my thoughts, and a little smile facing inwards... can you see it?
I definetly can...

JOIN

I can not believe this.
After all my effort to explain why mankind should think about getting back to the "stick and stone" pattern (I just sold myself cheap, later you'll understand why...), I found myself reaching to the "thing" that later will rule, and erase all chreads of torn feelings, that once used to be life.
Is evolution a "meant to be" phenomenon?
An excuse? A "running away from" prescribed pain killing drug?
I don't know... And I find no partners to my ground breaking dellusion of freedom.

CRAZY NIGHTS

Those crazy nights.....
Those crazy nights that you excuse by saying: "I had too much to drink..."
Did U? Had too much to drink?
BULLSHIT! U drank because u needed an excuse to make those things u fantasised about for so long. Those things that for some coward reason u can not make when you are, lets say... sane.
I do NOT buy it!!! You know exactly what you're doing, you know exactly where you want things to go, and still, you don't have the courage to admit you WANT to.
So I, have no shame, and I say: Fuck it all! I want to live! I want to experiment! I know that this life is too short to go to waist. I want all my fantasies to come true, and I can't wait! I want them now! Uncut and kicking!
But there are rules to be folowed, there are things to take under consideration...
So I say: FUCK IT ALL ! LIVE YOUR LIFE as there's no tomorrow as this was your last day on earth, because, if you want it or not, it actually may be, your last day here, among us, frightened people, frightened of our own desires, our own truths.
WHAT ARE YOU WAINTING FOR????
For the moment to vanish? NO babe! It is just here and now! The past... will not return. The future? Is for you to make. And the present? Is for you to live NOW! There's no other time but NOW. So go for it, and you will be blessed.
I am, at this very moment, under strong influence of alcohol, but who gives a fuck? Just live, and make your fantasies come true... I say: THE TIME IS NOW!!! So go and do your thing. U have a blessing. And do not foget, to have FUN!

THE WORSE FLAT-MATES EVER!

This is my first flat-mate experience. Untill now I lived with my parents, with my ex husband to be, and soizinha (portuguese for alone). We were friends before I moved in, and now we're even better friends. Yesterday we went out to the local bar to have a drink and ended up in the house completely drunk and drinking some more. At obout 5 am we sarted calling people. Do you know the feeling, when you wake up in the morning and smile (because it's gonna be a new lovely day) and IMMEDIATELY your smile changes into a OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE expression? Well... that was exactly the case this morning for both Lars and me. I can not believe we actually called different people, some in Israel, some in Germany, while we're laughing and singing and most of all, making sense just to ourselves.... What an embarrassment! At least I remembered some of the calls. Lars's case was worse. You should have seen the petrified look on his face when he asked me this morning, "Did we call some one last night?" HAHAHAHAHA Someone? A lot of someones baby! I found myself saying things like: "Hey Mark... would you like to come over and warm up my ass?" What the fuck was I thinking??? And worse! Who the fuck is Mark?! Don't even want to know.... But still, happily the the damage wasn't so bad (I hope, maybe I'm forgetting something...) and like my flat-mate Lars says: "Could be worse". The only thing we had to say to eachother after this "I'm never drinking again" night was: WE ARE THE WORSE FLAT-MATES EVER!!!!